{"id":2414,"date":"2018-03-17T13:03:34","date_gmt":"2018-03-17T13:03:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.nymagazin.com\/?p=2414"},"modified":"2018-03-17T13:09:29","modified_gmt":"2018-03-17T13:09:29","slug":"camelia-radulian-poezie","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.nymagazin.com\/en_US\/camelia-radulian-poezie\/","title":{"rendered":"Camelia Radulian\/Poezie"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignnone wp-image-2434\" src=\"http:\/\/www.nymagazin.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/28783146_1915280365178291_2890382058129981440_n.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"560\" height=\"560\" srcset=\"http:\/\/www.nymagazin.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/28783146_1915280365178291_2890382058129981440_n.jpg 898w, http:\/\/www.nymagazin.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/28783146_1915280365178291_2890382058129981440_n-150x150.jpg 150w, http:\/\/www.nymagazin.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/28783146_1915280365178291_2890382058129981440_n-300x300.jpg 300w, http:\/\/www.nymagazin.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/28783146_1915280365178291_2890382058129981440_n-768x768.jpg 768w, http:\/\/www.nymagazin.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/28783146_1915280365178291_2890382058129981440_n-700x700.jpg 700w, http:\/\/www.nymagazin.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/28783146_1915280365178291_2890382058129981440_n-210x210.jpg 210w, http:\/\/www.nymagazin.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/28783146_1915280365178291_2890382058129981440_n-32x32.jpg 32w, http:\/\/www.nymagazin.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/28783146_1915280365178291_2890382058129981440_n-50x50.jpg 50w, http:\/\/www.nymagazin.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/28783146_1915280365178291_2890382058129981440_n-64x64.jpg 64w, http:\/\/www.nymagazin.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/28783146_1915280365178291_2890382058129981440_n-96x96.jpg 96w, http:\/\/www.nymagazin.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/28783146_1915280365178291_2890382058129981440_n-128x128.jpg 128w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 560px) 100vw, 560px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>N-am \u0219tiut ce singur\u0103 m\u0103 la\u0219i nim\u0103nui<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Cu schijele lor asasine,<br \/>\ns\u0103rut\u0103rile noastre pe treptele lunii.<br \/>\n\u00cen rest, noapte-n p\u0103duri<br \/>\n\u0219i licheni.<\/p>\n<p>Plugurile au arat toate r\u0103d\u0103cinile verii.<br \/>\nIat\u0103, ziua \u00een care te \u00eengrop cre\u015fte<br \/>\nca un prohod<br \/>\nn-am velin\u0163e pentru trupul t\u0103u p\u0103r\u0103sit,<br \/>\nn-am m\u00e2ini s\u0103 te m\u00e2ng\u00e2i,<br \/>\nn-am odihn\u0103.<br \/>\nMi-ai r\u0103mas \u00een piept ca un ad\u00e2nc negru,<br \/>\na\u0219a \u00eemi curgi de m\u00e2los.<\/p>\n<p>Dori a uitare,<br \/>\niremediabil, cred.<\/p>\n<p>\u00cen mijlocul s\u00e2mbetelor e frig,<br \/>\nde-a lungul c\u0103ii ferate cresc maci,<br \/>\nde jur \u00eemprejurul pumnalelor,<br \/>\ntu, \u00eenalt.<br \/>\nTe scufund uneori \u00een culoarea garoafelor,<br \/>\nte pl\u00e2ng ca pe un mort<br \/>\nc\u00e2nd va bate primul clopot al verii. M\u00e2ine.<\/p>\n<p>Du-te acum,<br \/>\nr\u0103m\u00e2n la priveghi<br \/>\nmi-e frumos l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine, de iarb\u0103.<\/p>\n<p>Prin c\u0103lc\u00e2iul tijelor trece<br \/>\nutimul t\u0103u poem :<br \/>\nacesta.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Uitare<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Uitarea va veni cu trandafiri \u00eentre<br \/>\ndin\u021bi ca un amant p\u0103tima\u0219<br \/>\nva urca p\u00e2n\u0103 pe nodul g\u00e2tului,<br \/>\n\u00eencet,<br \/>\nacolo unde \u021b\u00e2\u0219nesc cele mai<br \/>\nfrumoase \u00eendoieli \u0219i se rup<br \/>\nsc\u00e2nduri de om<br \/>\n\u00eentr-un s\u0103rut otr\u0103vitor de v\u0103duv\u0103<br \/>\nneagr\u0103.<\/p>\n<p>Uit\u0103-m\u0103 \u00eencet, voi spune<br \/>\n\u00eendelung, a\u0219a cum m-ai iubi,<br \/>\nplimb\u0103-m\u0103 la bra\u021b \u00een pia\u021ba<br \/>\npublic\u0103<br \/>\npentru c\u0103 o execu\u021bie nu se<br \/>\n\u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 niciodat\u0103<br \/>\nf\u0103r\u0103 spectacol.<br \/>\n\u0218i m\u0103 va duce uitarea \u00een v\u0103zul<br \/>\nlumii, \u0219i din picioare \u00eemi vor ie\u0219i<br \/>\ntuberoze de mort, \u0219i toate<br \/>\ncelelalte flori ale lumii \u00eemi vor<br \/>\nr\u0103m\u00e2ne pe gur\u0103.<br \/>\nUnde s\u0103 stau atunci? Pe care<br \/>\nunghie \u00eendoit\u0103? Pe care st\u00e2rv s\u0103<br \/>\nsp\u00e2nzur c\u0103lc\u00e2iele ireversibil nemerse?<br \/>\nUitare \u00eenc\u0103l\u021bat\u0103 \u00een cimitire<br \/>\ndescul\u021be. Noi unde mergem?<br \/>\nUnde ne iubim? Morfina nu \u00ee\u0219i<br \/>\nmai face efectul.<\/p>\n<p>Voi spune lumii m\u00e2ine<br \/>\nc\u0103 te tac.<\/p>\n<p><strong>C\u00e2te cearc\u0103ne se scriu, doamn\u0103, sub fardul vostru verzui?<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Mereu am \u0219tiut, dar acum \u00een\u021beleg:<br \/>\nsunt fiica vitreg\u0103 a acestui ora\u0219;<br \/>\n\u00eei beau s\u00e2ngele<br \/>\npe str\u0103zile numai clocot,<br \/>\nnumai vopsea de iluzii.<\/p>\n<p>Trec cu vitrine cu tot<br \/>\nprin vacarm<br \/>\nde r\u00e2sete sparte<br \/>\nzei de ciment<br \/>\ncanale, decoltee \u0219i<br \/>\nnostalgii de o noapte.<\/p>\n<p>Femei usc\u0103\u021bive m\u0103tur\u0103 caldar\u00e2mul<br \/>\nde vr\u0103bii uitate.<br \/>\nSpal\u0103 asfaltul<br \/>\nde gratii \u0219i sfori.<\/p>\n<p>Doamne, aceast\u0103 frunz\u0103 coboar\u0103,<br \/>\neu nu mai \u021bin minte<br \/>\nnu mai \u021bin minte\u2026<br \/>\nVine toamna<br \/>\nsticl\u0103 peste sticl\u0103,<br \/>\ndestin peste destin,<br \/>\nvia\u021b\u0103 peste via\u021b\u0103,<br \/>\ndoliu pe u\u0219i.<\/p>\n<p>Doar la ferestre<br \/>\n\u00ee\u0219i face loc<br \/>\npovestea singur\u0103t\u0103\u021bii. Spectru.<br \/>\nC\u00e2te cearc\u0103ne se scriu, doamn\u0103,<br \/>\nsub fardul vostru verzui?<\/p>\n<p>Vede\u021bi?<br \/>\nstr\u0103zile \u00eensele \u00ee\u0219i beau cafeaua de diminea\u021b\u0103,<br \/>\nm\u0103\u0219tile<br \/>\nhainele, vie\u021bile,<br \/>\ncrucile lor vierm\u0103noase<br \/>\npe un pervaz cu petunii.<br \/>\nUnde mai e loc s\u0103 pun<br \/>\no m\u00e2n\u0103 de trestii,<br \/>\nunde<br \/>\ns\u0103 aprind lumini?<\/p>\n<p>Frig \u00een genunchii t\u0103i, doamn\u0103,<br \/>\nlavand\u0103 \u0219i praf<br \/>\n\u0219i ro\u021bi mari rostogolind<br \/>\ncopil\u0103rii \u00een venele putrede.<\/p>\n<p>Beau s\u00e2nge<br \/>\ndirect din p\u00e2ntecul disper\u0103rii<br \/>\nfoetus \u00een iarb\u0103,<br \/>\nvampir de o singur\u0103 via\u021b\u0103 cu po\u0219eta pe um\u0103r,<br \/>\neu,<br \/>\nbrand h\u0103mesit, vulgar, infinit<br \/>\ncurg\u00e2nd pe scoar\u021ba unei s\u0103lcii<br \/>\nla marginea mea.<br \/>\npulsa\u021bie<\/p>\n<p>Mereu am \u0219tiut,<br \/>\nMereu am \u0219tiut<br \/>\ndar abia acum \u00een\u021beleg\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Tu m\u0103turi luna de flori<\/p>\n<p>Lemnul casei a intrat \u00een viori<br \/>\np\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i hainele mele sun\u0103 a c\u00e2ntec.<br \/>\nE prim\u0103var\u0103. Sub stre\u0219ini<br \/>\nv\u00e2ntul aduce scrisori<br \/>\ncum s-ar leg\u0103na<br \/>\np\u00e2nzele \u00een p\u0103ianjeni,<br \/>\nsoarele-n poduri,<br \/>\nnegrul \u00een alb,<br \/>\ncum a\u0219 mu\u0219ca din p\u00e2ine<br \/>\n\u015fi numele \u0163i-ar \u021b\u00e2\u0219ni din p\u0103m\u00e2nt<br \/>\n\u00eensingurat ca frigul,<br \/>\ncum nu te-ai mai \u00eentors niciodat\u0103 acas\u0103<br \/>\n\u0219i a nins f\u0103r\u0103 tine \u0219i au trecut anotimpuri<br \/>\n\u0219i toate au l\u0103st\u0103rit \u0219i au mers mai departe<br \/>\nnumai mu\u0219catele,<br \/>\nnumai crinii,<br \/>\nnumai c\u00e2inele, nu,<br \/>\n\u0219i luna deasupra apei<br \/>\n\u0219i gr\u0103dina \u2013 desfr\u00e2nare de vrejuri<br \/>\np\u00e2n\u0103 la chei, p\u00e2n\u0103 la fereastr\u0103, p\u00e2n\u0103 la buricele degetelor,<br \/>\np\u00e2n\u0103 la p\u0103rul meu alb ca cire\u0219ii, Doamne,<br \/>\n\u00een care \u00eenchid aceast\u0103 dovad\u0103:<br \/>\ntu m\u0103turi luna de flori;<br \/>\ntu m\u0103 ningi.<br \/>\nmam\u0103.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Nu te-am iubit<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Putoareo! Urlai dup\u0103 mine s\u0103 str\u00e2ng rufele de pe culme<br \/>\ntocmai c\u00e2nd jucam \u0219eptic\u0103<br \/>\n\u0219i era gata s\u0103 c\u00e2\u0219tig<br \/>\ndu-te dracu te-a\u015f fi legat cu s\u00e2rm\u0103 ghimpat\u0103<br \/>\ndar morm\u0103iam<br \/>\ncu spatele \u00eentors<br \/>\ncum face toporul sp\u0103rturi<br \/>\n\u00een lemnele pentru foc.<br \/>\nVenise \u00eenapoi o zi de martie<br \/>\ncu iz de b\u0103legar \u015fi narcise<br \/>\naveai limba coclit\u0103<br \/>\n\u015fi p\u0103rul c\u0103runt<br \/>\ng\u00e2f\u00e2iai \u015fi p\u0103m\u00e2ntul<br \/>\nera ca o groap\u0103 nes\u0103pat\u0103.<br \/>\nNoaptea te mai g\u0103sea respir\u00e2nd,<br \/>\nfiecare p\u0103rticic\u0103 din noi se ducea, aluneca<br \/>\nadormeai uneori a cr\u00e2ng<br \/>\n\u0219i a at\u00e2ta bl\u00e2nde\u021be<br \/>\n\u0219i totu\u0219i nu te-am iubit.<br \/>\nPastilele, Doamne! farfurioara ciobit\u0103<br \/>\nm\u00e2na ta b\u0103tr\u00e2n\u0103 culeg\u00e2nd flori<br \/>\npe rou\u0103. Tremurai.<br \/>\nAbia atunci m-ai \u00eenvins.<br \/>\nMai \u015ftii<br \/>\n\u00een ziua aia salc\u00e2mii au mirosit a zdren\u021be<br \/>\nv\u00e2ntul i-a mi\u015fcat p\u00e2n\u0103 la trosnet<br \/>\nori soarele era prea \u00eencins.<br \/>\nErau albine pe bucata mea de p\u00e2ine cu miere<br \/>\n\u0219i toate clipele treceau lipicioase<br \/>\n\u0219i to\u021bi oamenii aceia din curte p\u0103reau tri\u0219ti<br \/>\nca p\u00e2nzele de p\u0103ianjen<br \/>\ndin poduri.<br \/>\nNici nu-nfloriser\u0103 crinii<br \/>\neu \u00eenv\u0103\u021basem s\u0103 \u00eemi fac cruce frumos<br \/>\nse mira lumea<br \/>\nera prim\u0103var\u0103<br \/>\nera at\u00e2ta prim\u0103var\u0103<br \/>\n\u0219i eu m\u00e2ncam coliv\u0103<br \/>\nsub florile de gutui.<br \/>\nD\u0103duser\u0103 foc la buruieni \u00eenspre deal<br \/>\nacolo unde sunt mor\u021bii,<br \/>\nunde se tace.<br \/>\nPopa termina de b\u0103ut<br \/>\nultima can\u0103 cu vin<br \/>\nm\u0103 umfla r\u00e2sul<br \/>\nc\u00e2nd r\u00e2g\u00e2ia la icoane<br \/>\nbeat turt\u0103,<br \/>\ndar tu nu m\u0103 mai \u00eenghionteai<br \/>\ntaci f\u0103 dracu din gur\u0103<br \/>\n\u0219i las\u0103 capu\u2019 \u00een jos, n\u0103roado!<br \/>\nTu erai acum un popor de iepe bolnave<br \/>\nsub un grajd n\u0103ruindu-se.<br \/>\nTu erai legat\u0103 cu o broboad\u0103 neagr\u0103<br \/>\n\u0219i nu \u0219tiu cine a aruncat ultima p\u00e2ine fr\u0103m\u00e2ntat\u0103 de tine<br \/>\nla c\u00e2ini.<br \/>\nCic\u0103 muceg\u0103ise.<br \/>\nMai \u015ftii g\u0103leata aia din tabl\u0103 tocit\u0103<br \/>\nstr\u00e2mb\u0103, lovit\u0103, parc\u0103 o v\u0103d,<br \/>\nerau \u00een ea lalele \u0219i lum\u00e2n\u0103ri<br \/>\nflori de curte umile, abia \u00eembobocite.<br \/>\nAm auzit p\u0103m\u00e2ntul din bulg\u0103ri<br \/>\nmi-a r\u0103mas m\u00e2na \u00eentins\u0103<br \/>\nca o pra\u0219tie dup\u0103 vr\u0103bii<br \/>\nn-am prins niciodat\u0103 nimic<br \/>\ndoar am schilodit, apoi n-am mai dormit<br \/>\nc\u00e2teva nop\u021bi. \u0218i iar am pl\u00e2ns<br \/>\n\u0219i te-am ur\u00e2t c\u0103 ai \u0219tiut c\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<br \/>\n\u00cen praful acelui drum<br \/>\ncineva te pierduse, Marie<br \/>\ncineva te tot striga<br \/>\ns\u0103 m\u0103 doar\u0103 pe mine<br \/>\ncu numele maicilor aspre<br \/>\ncum e v\u00e2ntul iernilor pe aici<br \/>\ncum e pelinul din spatele casei<br \/>\n\u0219i amarul lui din putinile cu vin o\u021betit.<br \/>\nMai trec \u0219i acum oi pribege<br \/>\nPrin spatele zidului<br \/>\npasc umbre de miei, doar at\u00e2t.<br \/>\nAt\u00e2ta<br \/>\npraf stelar<br \/>\nat\u00e2ta lini\u0219te, Marie!\u2026<br \/>\nZg\u00e2rii pere\u021bii cu o coaj\u0103 de nuc\u0103<br \/>\nsunt \u00eenc\u0103<br \/>\n7 f\u00e2nt\u00e2ni cu nisip pe la por\u021bi<br \/>\nLe sap \u015fi am p\u0103rul t\u0103u, Doamne,<br \/>\nc\u0103runt<br \/>\npe sub unghii.<br \/>\nAd\u00e2nc.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Tu<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Nici nu mai \u0219tiu dac\u0103 erai din carne \u0219i oase,<br \/>\ndar tu, iubire, veneai din m\u0103tase<br \/>\n\u0219i-aveai r\u0103suflare de verzi chiparoase<br \/>\nTu tremurai sub m\u00e2ng\u00e2iere 5 case<br \/>\n\u0219i c\u00e2teva cotropite de geam\u0103t ora\u0219e<br \/>\ncu clopote din bronz, uria\u0219e.<\/p>\n<p>Poate c\u0103 privirile mele erau pe atunci<br \/>\nni\u0219te lunci<br \/>\nverzi \u0219i prelungi,<br \/>\nori poate 7 spelunci<br \/>\nb\u00e2ntuite de c\u00e2teva fete trufa\u0219e<br \/>\nfugite din mame cu pruncii \u00een fa\u0219e<br \/>\nsau c\u00e2teva logodnice bete de tine<br \/>\n\u0219i la\u0219e.<br \/>\nPoate privirile mele pe-atunci<br \/>\nerau ropote-n dungi<br \/>\n\u00een ochii t\u0103i ca perdelele lungi<br \/>\nEu nu mai \u0219tiu, iubire, cum ar\u0103tai<br \/>\ndar frem\u0103tai \u00een mine cu murmur de nai<br \/>\ntu poate chiar cobor\u00e2se\u0219i din rai<br \/>\n\u0219i nu din gur\u0103, ci din \u00eengeri c\u00e2ntai.<br \/>\nTu poate via\u021ba-nviai<br \/>\nsau poate, sau poate<br \/>\nmoartea mureai<br \/>\nc\u00e2nd m\u0103 iubeai.<\/p>\n<p>Sau poate erai<br \/>\nun univers<br \/>\ninvers<br \/>\nst\u0103p\u00e2nit de o crava\u0219\u0103 albastr\u0103 de vers<br \/>\ncu picioare nef\u0103cute spre mers,<br \/>\nci spre val<br \/>\nca o pojghi\u021b\u0103 bl\u00e2nd sun\u0103toare dintr-un chimval.<br \/>\nTu poate veneai dintr-o e\u0219arf\u0103 fluturat\u0103-ntr-un bal\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Dar poate c\u0103, Doamne, eu te iubeam<br \/>\nat\u00e2t de frumos<br \/>\nat\u00e2t de \u00eenalt \u0219i-at\u00e2ta de jos<br \/>\npoate \u2013 spun zeii \u2013 pu\u021bin monstruos<br \/>\ncu toat\u0103 f\u0103ptura mea aruncat\u0103 pe dos<br \/>\nca o hain\u0103 descheiat\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 la umbr\u0103 de os<br \/>\n\u00een al t\u0103u de cedru \u0219i iarb\u0103 miros<br \/>\nmaiestuos\u2026<br \/>\nEu nu mai \u0219tiu, m\u0103 coseai pe un c\u00e2mp, m\u0103 dureai<br \/>\nsau poate c\u0103 nisipul meu aiurit \u00eenfloreai?<\/p>\n<p>Tu coborai de m\u00e2n\u0103 cu mine \u00een rai<br \/>\n\u0219i urcai<br \/>\ntu erai \u2026<\/p>\n<p><strong>V\u0103 jur, l-am iubit!<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Mi-a \u00eembobocit palmele, mi-a ame\u0163it pletele<br \/>\n\u00cen toate vis\u0103rile mi-a viscolit, bietele.<br \/>\nCu toate femeile verii l-am logodit.<br \/>\nCa pe un mire al lumii, a\u015fa l-am iubit.<br \/>\nPe funia vie\u0163ii de-ar mai fi s\u0103 m\u0103 nasc,<br \/>\nm-a\u015f face arsur\u0103 \u00een carnea-i, de vreasc<br \/>\nL-a\u015f n\u0103v\u0103li tot la fel peste s\u00e2nge<br \/>\n\u00cen bra\u0163ele lui, ca vioara m-a\u015f fr\u00e2nge.<br \/>\nL-a\u015f iubi \u015fi atunci pe s\u0103ruturi<br \/>\nscrise pe piele de fluturi.<br \/>\nCu somnul pu\u0163in, cu dor blestemat,<br \/>\nfemeie de cearc\u0103n pe-un ochi de b\u0103rbat,<br \/>\ni-a\u015f fi lui be\u0163ie, mi-ar fi el p\u0103cat.<br \/>\nPrivi\u0163i-m\u0103, zorilor, fetelor bune!<br \/>\nJur pe legendele voastre, pe lume:<br \/>\nmi-a \u00eembobocit toat\u0103 suflarea,<br \/>\nmi-a \u00eenflorit \u0163ip\u0103tul, palmele, marea.<br \/>\nMi-a n\u0103ucit prima pic\u0103tur\u0103 de rou\u0103,<br \/>\nfrumos &#8211; cum trecea-<br \/>\ncu sufletul meu<br \/>\nt\u0103iat pe din dou\u0103.<br \/>\nCu ultima s\u0103rutare de pom n\u0103ruit<br \/>\npe umerii vie\u0163ii v\u0103 jur:<br \/>\nl-am iubit!&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><strong>Mor tandru pe maci<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>E noapte cu vulpi pe \u015fosele de var<br \/>\nAdulmec z\u0103pezi de catran \u015fi absurd<br \/>\nMi-e da \u00eentr-un nu de secund\u0103 \u0219i iar<br \/>\nMi-e vale de timpul s\u0103p\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 surd.<br \/>\nMi-e team\u0103 de ieri \u00eentr-un m\u00e2ine trecut,<br \/>\nDe viscol m\u0103 plec \u015fi mi-e jar printre ploi,<br \/>\nC\u0103lug\u0103rii r\u00e2d cu un pl\u00e2ns pref\u0103cut<br \/>\nc\u00e2nd din\u0163i de \u015facal m\u0103 t\u00e2r\u0103sc prin noroi.<br \/>\nZiua asta de m\u00e2l pe-o troian\u0103 de spini<br \/>\nIeri pe funii de pod mai oftam piei de lup<br \/>\nUcide-m\u0103, timp, eu am s\u00e2nge de crini<br \/>\n\u0218i haina mi-e c\u00e2mp peste ve\u0219tedul trup.<br \/>\nS\u0103 plec, a\u015f pleca, m\u00e2n\u0103stire de fragi,<br \/>\nS\u0103 vin, a\u015f veni, r\u0103m\u00e2n\u00e2nd nen\u0103scut,<br \/>\nM-a\u015f face prohod de iluzii \u00een dragi,<br \/>\nPe bocet de fagi m-a\u015f \u00eentoarce \u00een lut.<br \/>\nE noapte cu vulpi, tot mai scot din abis<br \/>\nMinciuni de sub m\u0103\u015fti \u015fi copite \u0219i vai!<br \/>\nMi-e bine sub r\u0103ni, p\u0103pu\u015far \u00eentr-un vis<br \/>\nMor tandru pe maci \u015fi pe jale de nai\u2026<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00cemi beau ultima umbr\u0103<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u00cemi beau ultima umbr\u0103, cum toate s-au dus<br \/>\ndou\u0103 drumuri, doi spini, dou\u0103 nop\u021bi, trei t\u0103ceri<br \/>\ndou\u0103 zile de azi peste ziua de ieri<br \/>\n\u0219i o roat\u0103 scr\u00e2\u0219nind la apus.<br \/>\nR\u00e2d cu hohot.Sunt liber! Ce viscol, ce ger<br \/>\ne-n paharele noastre, ce \u00eengeri \u0219i cai<br \/>\nropotesc peste coastele mele \u0219i vai!<br \/>\nninge n\u0103prasnic de ieri&#8230;<br \/>\nNu mai vreau s\u0103 te \u0219tiu, e t\u00e2rziu \u0219i oricum<br \/>\n\u00eemi e bine a\u0219a, e \u00eenalt \u0219i pustiu<br \/>\n\u00cemi e-n golul de tine prea mult \u0219i prea viu<br \/>\n\u00cemi e-n golul de tine precum\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Poate m\u00e2ine, sau nu, poate azi voi uita<br \/>\ns\u0103 te vreau, s\u0103 te scriu, s\u0103 nimic, s\u0103 r\u00e2njesc<br \/>\n\u00eentr-un lup ostenit s\u0103-n\u021beleg c\u0103 tr\u0103iesc<br \/>\nCe prostii mai g\u00e2ndesc! Hai, mai bea!<br \/>\n\u00cemi beau umbra din zile. \u0218i totu\u0219i tot nu<br \/>\nplec l\u0103s\u00e2nd la fere\u0219ti cinci icoane de fum<br \/>\nsap \u00een perini f\u00e2nt\u00e2ni \u0219i sub pleoape te-adun<br \/>\nm\u00e2na mea blestemat\u0103 e\u0219ti tu.<br \/>\nHaide, lua\u021bi \u00een galop acest aer rotit<br \/>\nCaii mei de triste\u021bi, lupii mei de argint<br \/>\nBeau c\u0103m\u0103\u0219ile lui \u0219i tot vreau s\u0103 m\u0103 mint<br \/>\no duminic\u0103-n \u0219ei ne-a-mpietrit.<br \/>\nS\u0103 fum\u0103m piei de \u0219erpi \u0219i s\u0103 ningem n\u0103me\u021bi<br \/>\nde pustiu \u0219i de mirt \u0219i de vinuri \u00een van<br \/>\nEu \u00een viscol s\u0103 ard ca un lemn de pian<br \/>\nIar tu, ziu\u0103 de ieri, s\u0103 m-a\u0219tep\u021bi&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><strong>Vai, ochii mei, Doamne<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Vai, ochii mei, Doamne, parc\u0103-s dou\u0103 tulpini<br \/>\ncrescute prin m\u0103r\u0103cini<br \/>\nUnul e c\u00e2t un p\u00e2r\u00e2u mai devale,<br \/>\naproape o jale.<br \/>\nAltul, agale,<br \/>\n\u00eemi zace \u00een poale<br \/>\nclipe\u0219te cu boabe de ape ca hoa\u021ba<br \/>\nbea mult p\u0103m\u00e2nt diminea\u021ba<br \/>\nAre batiste din m\u0103rare \u0219i fum<br \/>\nface e\u0219arfe din drum<br \/>\ne cam nebun.<br \/>\nVai, luminile mele<br \/>\ndou\u0103 frici, dou\u0103 stele<br \/>\ndou\u0103 bezne<br \/>\nlumin\u00e2nde pe perne<br \/>\nochii mei, dou\u0103 berne<br \/>\nDou\u0103 nop\u021bi legate de poduri<br \/>\np\u0103ianjeni \u0219i gloduri.<\/p>\n<p>Doamne, vai, mie<br \/>\nsunt singur\u0103 pe deal ca o vie<br \/>\ncu am\u00e2ndoi spinii v\u0103d o ulcic\u0103<br \/>\ns\u0103rat\u0103 \u0219i mic\u0103<br \/>\nascuns\u0103 \u00een mine de fric\u0103.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Singura iubire<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>De tot nu ne-am pierdut, dar ca o \u015foapt\u0103<br \/>\nne-am dus \u00eencet, c\u00e2nd ne iubeam mai tare,<br \/>\nmai zbuciumat \u015fi mai a singurare,<br \/>\nca lini\u015ftea cresc\u00e2nd o par\u0103 coapt\u0103<br \/>\npe s\u00e2nul nop\u0163ii stinse care-a fost.<br \/>\nA vindecare-am ridicat \u00eencet<br \/>\ndin fluturi pa\u015fii mei cusu\u021bi cu s\u00e2rm\u0103<br \/>\nspre timpul ce-a l\u0103sat poteci \u00een urma<br \/>\ncelui ce-a fost icoana mea dint\u00e2i<br \/>\n\u015fi a r\u0103mas iubirea mea din urm\u0103<br \/>\n\u0218i-mi va r\u0103m\u00e2ne-a\u015fa p\u00e2n-o s\u0103 fie<br \/>\ns\u0103-mi pl\u00e2ng\u0103 tei b\u0103tr\u00e2ni la c\u0103p\u0103t\u00e2i.<br \/>\nNu a\u015f putea s\u0103-\u0163i spun acum \u201er\u0103m\u00e2i\u201d.<br \/>\nE plin ora\u015ful de istorii moarte<br \/>\n\u015fi noi, probabil, suntem azi la fel<br \/>\n\u2013 doi fo\u0219ti aman\u021bi curm\u00e2nd sub foi de carte<br \/>\npovestea unei nop\u0163i cu gust rebel \u2013<\/p>\n<p>Ce straniu cre\u015fte-n via\u021b\u0103 am\u0103girea<br \/>\n\u015fi minte zvonuri de iubiri eterne<br \/>\n\u00een fiecare zv\u00e2cnet de pe perne<br \/>\n\u00een fiecare pl\u00e2nset f\u0103r\u0103 rost!\u2026<br \/>\n\u015ei totu\u015fi undeva, ascunse-n luturi,<br \/>\n\u00ee\u021bi cad \u00een s\u00e2nge vechile s\u0103ruturi,<br \/>\n\u00ee\u0163i mu\u015fc\u0103 m\u00e2na tainic amintirea<br \/>\ndin singura iubire unde-ai fost.<br \/>\n\u00cen spinii ei, ca frunzele te scuturi\u2026<\/p>\n<p><strong>Leag\u0103, Doamne<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Leag\u0103, Doamne, v\u00e2ntu-n iesle<br \/>\n\u0218i m\u0103-ncuie-ntr-o copit\u0103<br \/>\nCu cinci maici de cr\u00e2nguri murge<br \/>\n\u0218i cu jar trosnind sub plit\u0103;<br \/>\nDoamne, de-un potop frumos<br \/>\nCu doi miei de c\u00e2mp de mure<br \/>\nLeag\u0103 ochii mei s\u0103-ndure<br \/>\nDorul ei de vin lutos.<br \/>\nLeag\u0103-m\u0103 de mine, Doamne<br \/>\nCu t\u0103ciune stins pe r\u00e2uri<br \/>\nCum \u015fi ea pe greab\u0103n fr\u00e2uri<br \/>\nMi-a tot pus din col\u0163 de ochi<br \/>\nSi mi-a r\u0103sucit prin oase<br \/>\nVerzi sp\u0103rturi de lemne coapte<br \/>\nSi-mi tot rupe \u015fi-mi tot coase<br \/>\nPloi de ea prin m\u00e2l de nop\u0163i.<br \/>\nLeag\u0103-m\u0103 ca pe o toamn\u0103<br \/>\nDe un st\u00e2lp de m\u00e2n\u0103stire<br \/>\nSi-mi cite\u015fte din psaltire<br \/>\nCu doi ochi sub\u0163iri de doamn\u0103<br \/>\nCu doi ochi sub\u021biri, de ho\u021b..<br \/>\nS\u0103 nu plec, s\u0103 nu m\u0103 fure<br \/>\nCu tot sufletul din mine<br \/>\nCa pe-o can\u0103 cu afine<br \/>\nCa pe-un bra\u0163 de flori la por\u0163i.<br \/>\nLeag\u0103, Doamne, dac\u0103 po\u0163i&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignnone wp-image-2434\" src=\"http:\/\/www.nymagazin.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/28783146_1915280365178291_2890382058129981440_n.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"560\" height=\"560\" srcset=\"http:\/\/www.nymagazin.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/28783146_1915280365178291_2890382058129981440_n.jpg 898w, 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